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I love school!

At the risk of sounded like the biggest nerd in the universe, this was one of the best semesters I had in Graduate school, or ever really.

I finished my thesis on Emotional Competence in Young Children, a topic I explored at length in my master’s program and I’m very proud of my work. Before you begin to say, she has no shame. Let it be known that I am, my own, harshest critic. I’m always telling myself, I can do better, but this time. I can actually say, I did good! I researched very thoroughly on a topic that I truly loved, and it was my best work so far in Graduate school.

Some of my classmates are graduating this year and I’m going to miss them.

Thank Goodness, I’m not graduating yet! I have one more semester to go, a class in Program Evaluation (educational programs) and Early Childhood before I officially graduate. I’m very excited about the latter course because I truly enjoy working with young children. When I’m done with school, I’m going to explore the possibilities of working with young children.

I’m so thankful for my supportive husband, and the fact that I don’t have to juggle a full time job and a Master’s program. It has really given me the opportunity to dig deep and really explore my passions and research interests. Thank you MB!!! Considering that I’ve finished the most difficult part of graduate school, I’m ready to cruise through the next semester. Bring it on!

Before that tho, I’m looking at a trip to Kris’s parents and a long awaited trip back home to Singapore.

Holidays! Here I come!

 

Graduate School after 365.

Last Sunday, I submitted my 20 page research paper and concluded 1 year of Graduate School in Educational Psychology. It was a challenging but intellectually fun year. The start of the program was honestly intimidating because I couldn’t really fathom the American accent all that well, knew nothing about the discipline of educational psychology, knew nothing much about the educational system in the US, and frankly forgot what it was like going back to school again. However, the year has been very enriching, not only in terms of learning something new and making new friends but more importantly growing as a person. I’m still not so sure what I want to do after I graduate, but I’m not going to be a teacher in a public school in NY, that I know for sure. Ideally, I want to find something in a non profit, or perhaps if I dare say, start up something on my own. Back in my youth, I had dreams of starting a play school. I even had a name for it, “Oinkers Play School”, with little baby pigs as my mascot. The hubby said it will never fly because its too cutesy for America, but hey! Dreams are free and unrestrictive!

The most important lesson I’ve learnt so far, from a particular classmate of mine, actually is to just DIVE DEEP into what you’re currently doing. He’s like a machine really, he figuratively BULLDOZES into this program and runs over all distractors in his sight. I guess what I’m attempting to say poetically, but failing miserably is that he puts his heart and soul into the program and just does it extremely well. I think that in order for me to succeed, I need to put away the stresses of what’s next and just bury myself headlong into what I’m learning and then it will come to me. Not the other way around.

I really like my classmates, they are all very nice, faultlessly polite, fun and very driven to succeed. Some of them are big smarty pants too and I like being in an environment where I can learn from smart people! Someone once said, always attempt to be the dumbest person in the room, that is when you can learn the most!

I’ve got about a 1.5 years to go before graduation, hopefully they will offer the programs that I’m interested in within the next 3 semesters. I really want to take cognitive technology and early childhood development. Maybe my ‘Oinkers Playschool’ will be equipped with learning Ipads and state of the art technology. Honestly tho, I’m undecided about the use of technology in learning, its all in the rage right now and I use it a ton, but so much has not been researched in this area that I worry of the possible future repercussions. But maybe, I worry too much. Kids in the future will probably have self driving cars and their lives will probably be surrounded by technology, more so that I will have been. It’s funny how every generation, holds on to a part of the past that they grew up with and is slightly apprehensive of the future.

That is why, it is essential that I take this module in Cognitive Technology. I’m probably willing to delay my graduation for it. YAY, one more semester of graduate school. I want to be an eternal student (in some ways), will be cool if I can do a Masters in Early Childhood Education after this. Who knows?

 

Challenge ACCEPTED!!

School is a lot more challenging than I thought it would be. However, hard work is good for one’s soul.

I did pretty good in some papers, okay in others. Class average wise, I’m doing okay. I’m a good student I guess, not excellent just good.

Considering that I left school a while ago, that the American education system is new to me, psychology is something I’ve never done before. I think I’m learning a lot of new things. Why did I choose educational psychology? Honestly, its just because I’m interested and its something I’ve never done before. So yup, of course its hard. Why did I ever think its going to be easy?

Honestly, I think it took me about 1/3 of the semester to really understand what my professor and classmates were really saying. I mean I usually get 70-80% of whats going on pretty well, but it’s the cultural references and examples that are mostly American centric, that sometimes kill me. I mean in  class we were given a video to watch and identify learning theories, but because of the thick and heavy African American accent and idioms used, I couldn’t really make out the dialogue that was going on. But! Its okay, I will get better at it over time.

Or perhaps  I can suggest that future videos come with subtitles, but I’m the ONLY one in class who probably doesn’t understand and I feel bad for making someone do extra work just for me.  -_-

Statistics and all its mathematical formulas was also challenging, considering it has been 15 years since I took any math classes.

SO!!!!!

All in all, I’m pretty happy with my progress. I have gotten pretty decent grades and one lousy grade (even tho class average wise it was an okay grade) but I have tried to rethink and re-strategize my learning techniques and hopefully in the next test, I will do better!

At the end of the day, the most important thing is that I’m trying my very best and not short changing myself!!!

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Back to school: with a plethora of emotions

Today marks the 1st day of class for my Masters in Educational Psychology in Hunter College. I am ridiculously and unapologetically excited. I feel my heart fluttering and beating quite quickly just thinking about it.

For this semester, I opted to just take 2.5? classes (The norm is 2 and there’s some pro seminar thing which I don’t know much about yet)  I wanted to slowly ease back into the system and enjoy the process. Unlike during my BA and Post Grad Dip days, where I had to run from tuition kid to tuition kid and/or part-time jobs, after/before classes. I now can luxuriate in printing notes, looking through class materials and blogging before class. This feeling is AWESOME! I must remember to thank my proud sponsor and loving husband for it all.

I’ve always wanted to study outside of the Singapore Education System and given my financial background in the past, I could scarcely afford my UBC exchange program without the two scholarships, I was extremely lucky to get. This time I feel even luckier because for once in my life, I need not worry about how am I going to pay the bills! I can just enjoy the process of studying and not have any stress about paying for books, maintaining a high GPA to be kept in my scholarship program or worry about my tuition kids, who often had the same exam periods as mine! I might get a part-time job/internship for the exposure to the educational field in my 2nd semester tho. Or perhaps, I will just continue volunteering for New York Cares because the organization is great and I enjoy working with less privileged children.

I feel ridiculously blessed to be at this stage in life where I feel I have no major struggle.  Honestly, I almost feel emotional just thinking about it. I was raised in a way, circumstantial or otherwise, that I was never just given stuff. I had to work hard for the things I wanted. Both my grandparents were from extremely humble backgrounds, endured great hardships and hence I was taught that education was an extremely extremely important means to live a better life, in a strictly financial sense (unfortunately). However, I now have the opportunity to engage in education in a ‘self actualization’, vis-a-vis education to satisfy ‘physiological needs’. I can learn for the sake of gaining knowledge and for betterment of self. Perhaps I shouldn’t have viewed them as dichotomous relationships, but I used to; for the instincts of survival was too overpowering.

I was never extremely intelligent so, in order to do well in school and in work; I compensated by having to work harder than the average Joe. I used to bemoan the fact that I wasn’t naturally gifted or handed silver spoons while growing up. But now, I’m extremely grateful that I have had to work hard to achieve the opportunities I have now. For it has given me clarity of thought, a mature and well grounded attitude in life and more importantly it has taught me to  be grateful,humble and content for the things I have. I’ve grown up to know,  not to feel entitled, and more importantly be responsible for my life because nobody was going to ‘rescue’ me. It is with this belief that I’m not going to pay for all of my (future possible) kid’s college tuition. I will give them a fixed amount, and they would have to work hard to get their own scholarships to fund the rest. Or perhaps they can choose to go to NUS or NTU which are world classes institutions at 1/4 the price of a private American college on par in terms of ranking (according to the Princeton Review). Yes I am very proud of my home Universities!

I have worked hard in the past and now, have reaped some of the benefits of that hard work in my youth. I acknowledge that I have a long way to go, and more hard work needs to be done, but I also realized that it is time for a well-deserved pat in my back. I have always been unnecessarily harsh with myself, and that has impeded much of the happiness in my journey through life. Through my quest for happiness and meaning in my life, I’ve finally realized that contentment and gratefulness are important trajectories of happiness. It’s not just about how much you have, but how much you appreciate what you have.

Achievement unlocked!

This week has been the best week of 2014!

I have not only, gotten all A’s for all my assignments in the language class I’m taking, but also have been accepted into a Masters Program in Educational Psychology. The former is worth mentioning because I took a college class partly to ‘switch on my engines’, in preparation for graduate studies. It’s swell that I’ve done well, because it gives me greater confidence in doing well for Graduate School.

I’m really excited and grateful for the opportunity to return to school again. I aspire to do more with my life and I feel that this is taking a HUGE step in the right direction. Once again tho, I must remind myself that the journey is as important as the destination. While I want to graduate well academically, I must make sure that I fully enjoy and embrace the learning process.

I’m enjoying the lovely spring weather and looking forward to making a trip back home to my lovely country, Singapore. I miss my family and friends dearly and can’t wait to see them again! Oh, and all the super-yummy-drool-worthy-delicious Singaporean food!!!

I feel so happy that my chest is ballooning in happiness. I’m not sure if that even makes any sense to anyone. However, it does to me!

Special mention must be given to my sweetie pie hubby and all who love me, for their constant support!

 

Project Grateful 365: Grateful for a super supportive hubby!

Day 117: 2nd March 2013

So yesterday in bid to lug myself out of my mopey molly syndrome, I decided to force the hubby out of the house to watch a comedy – Identify Theft!

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We both love Jason Batemen from the famous series of Arrested Development and I needed a laugh, so why not! 28 USD later, I was rather pleased. It was not fantastic but still quite funny and had a feel good element at the end. How selflessness gives way to selfishness and because of the former, you feel much better about your life. Melissa McCarthy was hilarious, very entertaining and executed her part very effortlessly.

Anyways, what transpired after the movie, was the one worth documenting and remembering. 🙂

As we were walking back home from the theatre, Kris kissed the top of my heart (#shortpeopleadvantages) and told me, ‘HAPPY 1 week wifelet’, (I totally forgot we got married a week ago :/ ) and proceeded to tell me he marked the date in the 2014 calendar coz he was afraid he would forget. HOW SWEET IS THAT BOY? I felt very loved.

As we were walking along, I told him more about graduate school and the expenses and how I was worried that following my dreams/going into graduate school doing the things I want might not be a sensible financial decision and blah blah blah. And he says, ‘Don’t worry about the money, just do the things you want and I’ll take care of the rest, do the things you’re passionate about and the things that make you happy!!’

So yes, today I feel grateful for having married such a wonderful hubby, because its not as it we have tons of cash lying around, yet he’s willing to take on (future) financial strains/inconveniences to help support my dream.

 

edit: After running some numbers vaguely through my head, I think its more prudent for me to get a job for a year. (If I can that is *crosses fingers*, given the dire job market situation in the US) Then later study part time and work part time in graduate school. I can do it *pumps fist*!!!!! First step, register for the GREs in Nov 2013! Or maybe first step, consolidate those AOS papers so I can file for the GC and get my Employment Pass!!!!