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Home and Travels

My little nephew calls Kris, Uncle Kris Kris or sometimes Uncle Kiss Kiss when he’s feeling cheeky. At 3 years of age, he’s cheeky a lot. His eyes gleams with cheekiness. I miss him and his mama so much and I cannot wait to go back in August. I miss family and friends. Smartphones are a life saver, because of all the free apps I get to speak/text and/or get shown videos almost everyday. Its less time consuming as an actual phone call/Skype and I get to be a part of their lives on a daily basis. Best part, I get to choose to partake in only the good parts! No drama filters to me because I’m so far away. #winningcombo.

I’m already missing Vancouver. I miss having my husband around mostly! Holding hands and enjoying each others company. The moment we stepped into NYC, he was on full on work mode and has been literally working nonstop. I do miss him from time to time. I miss having dinner together without him checking on his people on the west coast who are still at work. I miss eating breakfast with him without him only having 15 minutes to shower and dash out of the door for his breakfast meeting at 8am. At the same time, I’m also very happy and proud of what he has achieved for himself and I understand that sacrifices need to be made to get the things he/we want. But, I just miss having him around. Perhaps tho because he gives me so little full attention, that it makes what little time we have so even more wonderful!

When he reads this, he will probably instinctively go, THAT’S NOT TRUE! I guess our definitions of being with one another defers a little. Him watching TV (usually piew piew movies) and me reading on my kindle at 1am at night on the same sofa doesn’t qualify. Neither does eating dinner together while he replies to work emails qualify. However, I do recognize that he just simply does not have enough time of day to finish all the things he has to do. Hopefully in a few years tho, he can reap his rewards.

I dream of the day we can float around the Caribbean /Mediterranean /Europe/ Asia on a (RENTED!) catamaran and enjoy life a bit. He will enjoy the sailing part and I’ll enjoy the calmer (relative to a sailboat) boat ride and shore excursions. Maybe, someone will invent an anti seasick pill that actually works, so I can enjoy the sailing part.

I dream that we can backpack to the 7 continents on a RTW tickets and go explore a little bit more nature.

I dream that we can eventually own a cosy and non chi chi home. (Lately tho, I’ve seen how it can be more of a hassle being a home owner and have accepted that rentals for our situation is actually a smarter option.)

For for all these collective dreams, I have to be patient and let him do this thing! #EventuallyTheySay! #Patienceisavirtue

Graduate School after 365.

Last Sunday, I submitted my 20 page research paper and concluded 1 year of Graduate School in Educational Psychology. It was a challenging but intellectually fun year. The start of the program was honestly intimidating because I couldn’t really fathom the American accent all that well, knew nothing about the discipline of educational psychology, knew nothing much about the educational system in the US, and frankly forgot what it was like going back to school again. However, the year has been very enriching, not only in terms of learning something new and making new friends but more importantly growing as a person. I’m still not so sure what I want to do after I graduate, but I’m not going to be a teacher in a public school in NY, that I know for sure. Ideally, I want to find something in a non profit, or perhaps if I dare say, start up something on my own. Back in my youth, I had dreams of starting a play school. I even had a name for it, “Oinkers Play School”, with little baby pigs as my mascot. The hubby said it will never fly because its too cutesy for America, but hey! Dreams are free and unrestrictive!

The most important lesson I’ve learnt so far, from a particular classmate of mine, actually is to just DIVE DEEP into what you’re currently doing. He’s like a machine really, he figuratively BULLDOZES into this program and runs over all distractors in his sight. I guess what I’m attempting to say poetically, but failing miserably is that he puts his heart and soul into the program and just does it extremely well. I think that in order for me to succeed, I need to put away the stresses of what’s next and just bury myself headlong into what I’m learning and then it will come to me. Not the other way around.

I really like my classmates, they are all very nice, faultlessly polite, fun and very driven to succeed. Some of them are big smarty pants too and I like being in an environment where I can learn from smart people! Someone once said, always attempt to be the dumbest person in the room, that is when you can learn the most!

I’ve got about a 1.5 years to go before graduation, hopefully they will offer the programs that I’m interested in within the next 3 semesters. I really want to take cognitive technology and early childhood development. Maybe my ‘Oinkers Playschool’ will be equipped with learning Ipads and state of the art technology. Honestly tho, I’m undecided about the use of technology in learning, its all in the rage right now and I use it a ton, but so much has not been researched in this area that I worry of the possible future repercussions. But maybe, I worry too much. Kids in the future will probably have self driving cars and their lives will probably be surrounded by technology, more so that I will have been. It’s funny how every generation, holds on to a part of the past that they grew up with and is slightly apprehensive of the future.

That is why, it is essential that I take this module in Cognitive Technology. I’m probably willing to delay my graduation for it. YAY, one more semester of graduate school. I want to be an eternal student (in some ways), will be cool if I can do a Masters in Early Childhood Education after this. Who knows?

 

Project Grateful 365: Grateful for a super supportive hubby!

Day 117: 2nd March 2013

So yesterday in bid to lug myself out of my mopey molly syndrome, I decided to force the hubby out of the house to watch a comedy – Identify Theft!

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We both love Jason Batemen from the famous series of Arrested Development and I needed a laugh, so why not! 28 USD later, I was rather pleased. It was not fantastic but still quite funny and had a feel good element at the end. How selflessness gives way to selfishness and because of the former, you feel much better about your life. Melissa McCarthy was hilarious, very entertaining and executed her part very effortlessly.

Anyways, what transpired after the movie, was the one worth documenting and remembering. 🙂

As we were walking back home from the theatre, Kris kissed the top of my heart (#shortpeopleadvantages) and told me, ‘HAPPY 1 week wifelet’, (I totally forgot we got married a week ago :/ ) and proceeded to tell me he marked the date in the 2014 calendar coz he was afraid he would forget. HOW SWEET IS THAT BOY? I felt very loved.

As we were walking along, I told him more about graduate school and the expenses and how I was worried that following my dreams/going into graduate school doing the things I want might not be a sensible financial decision and blah blah blah. And he says, ‘Don’t worry about the money, just do the things you want and I’ll take care of the rest, do the things you’re passionate about and the things that make you happy!!’

So yes, today I feel grateful for having married such a wonderful hubby, because its not as it we have tons of cash lying around, yet he’s willing to take on (future) financial strains/inconveniences to help support my dream.

 

edit: After running some numbers vaguely through my head, I think its more prudent for me to get a job for a year. (If I can that is *crosses fingers*, given the dire job market situation in the US) Then later study part time and work part time in graduate school. I can do it *pumps fist*!!!!! First step, register for the GREs in Nov 2013! Or maybe first step, consolidate those AOS papers so I can file for the GC and get my Employment Pass!!!!