Corrine May: Everything in its time.

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it’s hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I’m two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I’m stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

’cause maybe there’s another plan
One I still can’t see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

This song pretty much resonates aptly how I feel. I am pretty much finished with being sad/angry/frustrated about this entire process. I’m not done with the visa yet, but here and now, I’m DONE DONE DONE!! with all the negative emotions.

I’ve come to the realisation that I must be thankful about everything that has happened. To date going through the visa process is the hardest thing that Kris and myself have done as a couple. Through this, I have also realized how much Kris loves me. I mean I have always known that he loves me, but this entire experience has made me realized the unconditional way in which he loves me. He loves me and is extremely patient with me, even when I am angsty, impatient, extremely angry and extremely un-lovable. I’m so grateful to have someone in my life that loves me so much, in good and in bad/whiny!

I’m also extremely grateful to my sister and my brother in law, who generously and unconditionally accepted me (and sometimes Kris) into their home with much kindness and big heartedness. I’m grateful that my sister is on her maternity leave and I have time to hang out with her. Of course, who can forget my adorable little cupcake, with whom I can get to spend his precious first few months with!  If my visa went smoothly and quickly, I would have just left for the states early this year and never had time to spend with these wonderful people in my life.

Not to forget being thankful for my close gal friends, who have been constantly encouraging and supporting me.  I’m really quite a lucky girl!

I moan and groan about being inconvenienced by this ~12 month visa waiting period, especially the part about having to be away from Kris. But I forgot to be thankful for: the ability to afford air tickets back and forth. I forgot to be thankful that: Singapore is under the visa waiver programme so that I can visit a little. I forgot to be thankful that: Kris’s company is so flexible that they allow him to come for a couple of weeks to work. I forgot to be thankful that: I am financially blessed in such a way, that I can not work for the time being and spend time at home with my little nephew and help around a little at home!

So to echo Corrine May, I must remember, everything in its time and to be grateful and thankful for the present instead.

So thank you, for everything in my blessed little life! Most of the wait is now gone, its time for me  NOW to cherish the little time I have in Singapore before I endeavor to begin a new chapter of my life, with my lover and best friend. Kristopher Robot Beevers! *chu chu*

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